Monday, December 29, 2008

asking for prayers

I don't tend to write extremely personal things on my blog, and I suppose that even the following excerpt from an email doesn't really delve into my own emotions at this time. I feel too emotionally drained and physically exhausted to even try to express any of that right now. I did, however, want to let people know about what is going on in my life right now. Here is an excerpt of an email I just wrote:

As you may have heard, I rushed to Utah on Christmas Eve to spend the holiday with my family after hearing very sad news about my mom. We found out on the 23rd that my mom has colon cancer - and the cancer has spread to her pelvis and liver. It appears that a large tumor in her ovary slightly shifted last week; it was the pain from that slight shift that caused my mom to go to the hospital and get checked out. We are at least glad about that - if my mom hadn't felt that pain, we might have not found out about the cancer until it was too late.

It appears that my mom has had cancer for years and years. It is listed as Stage IV, which is the highest level of classification in regards to cancer progression. She will likely start chemotherapy on Wednesday, although my mom and dad are still busy trying to consult with other doctors to get second opinions regarding the option of surgery. I'm not sure if the doctors have given my mom a time frame (I don't know if she would tell us if she did get one), but I do know they have recommended that she write her will. She has received several priesthood blessings, and the one last night blessed her with the gift of healing, although we know that this blessing must also be in accordance with God's will. We all have felt comfort by the Spirit though, which is helping us at this time. We are also exercising our faith and not giving up hope.

I am glad I've been able to be with the family and help out. Sam has cheered everyone up and I know he has been a happy distraction for my mom. My mom told V that this past Christmas was the best one our family has ever had - she felt like we were all unified and connected as a family unit.

I don't know how long I'll be in Utah; I assume I will be here until the end of this week. Please keep my mom and family in your prayers. I will send an update on my mom's situation when I have another free moment.

My second cousin is setting up a blog which will give people updates on my mom's condition. Once that gets set-up, I'll pass along the link and information.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Monica, I am so sorry you and your family had to receive such awful news. Your mother is a lovely woman and she and your family will be in our prayers. May God continue to bless you with peace. We love you.

Anonymous said...

Dear Monica,
Thank you for sharing further news about Ann Marie. You are constantly in our hearts and prayers. We miss you and Sam, but are so grateful that you are there with your family and that Sam brings cheerfulness. We'll do anything we can to help.
Love,
Annette & Scott/Mom & Dad

Anonymous said...

Hi Kindle
As someone who has a mom that has been through five rounds of breast cancer and shouldn't even be living right now, I understand exactly what you are going through. Don't give up hope. I will definitely keep your mom in my prayers and put her name on the prayer roll at the temple. What is her name? Please let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do!

Anonymous said...

Oh, I'm so sorry! You and your family will be in my prayers for sure. That reminds me so much of our situation last year with my mother-in-law. It was so hard!!!

Anonymous said...

I love you.

Anonymous said...

My Prayers are with you and your family!!

Anonymous said...

Oh Kindle, I'm so sorry about this news of what your mom is going through. We will keep her and the rest of you in our prayers. I only met your mom once, but I still remember her and her cute short/dark hair. Hang in there!