Tuesday, October 20, 2009

product of mild insomnia

I have a lot going through my brain right now, and I can't seem to fall asleep. Hopefully if I purge all of my thoughts into this post, then I'll be able to get a good night's rest (from what's left of the night, that is).
  • The other weekend J and I watched The Thin Man with William Powell and Myrna Loy. I've wanted to watch this old movie for a long time, and I'm glad that we did. It really is quite funny and it's a murder mystery (bonus!). J and I had a couple of unexpected and hearty laughs during the show. I watched this YouTube compilation of clips from the series, and some of the other films look like they might be fun. Has anyone else seen any of The Thin Man films? Which film in the series should we watch next?
  • I think I'll be ready to submit my article by the end of this month. I've done a lot of rewriting and the process has been slow-going, but I'm almost there. I hope that this journal approves it for publication. If not, though, I'll try and send it elsewhere. I'm just glad that I (almost) have a succinct article that is short enough to appear in a scholarly journal. And who knew that my thesis could be condensed to almost a fifth of its original size? Not me.
  • I met a really nice girl today who recently moved to Seattle. We were introduced through a mutual friend via email, and she came over to talk about job hunting in the area (she hopes to land an adjunct lecturer position and wanted some advice). It was so nice to meet someone and feel like I could connect with them on multiple levels. I haven't really made any close friends since moving up here, although I do have some local friends that I knew from high school/college. In regards to making new friends, though, that hasn't really happened. I have made plenty of casual friendships at church and in the area, but no one with whom I've connected on a very close level. J thinks that we'll never be able to recreate the close relationships that we have with college friends, and maybe he's right. But I'd like to think that I'm not so snobby/boring/standoffish/strange that I can't form a good friendship or two.
  • I found out today that my mom has kidney stones. Seriously, my mom does not need to deal with that right now. I hope it ends soon.
  • I really, really need to stop dreaming about SC. For the past couple of years, I have consistently dreamed about one of my friends. On average, I would say that this friend pops up in at least one dream per month. All of the dreams are really bizarre, too. It's kind of hard to explain, but I know that I keep dreaming about this friend because it bothers me so much. I think I first dreamed about SC when I was a newlywed, and I must have felt guilty that there was a boy in my dream that wasn't J (even though I'm sure that the dream was not romantic). Anyhow, I think my initial vexation has started this whole dream trend. J thinks the whole thing is a little humorous. I'm just irked with my subconscious.

10 comments:

Ashley said...

It bugs me too! I dream about ex-boyfriends pretty regularly, it's like they're still haunting me for some reason. I just wish they would all go away! And sometimes I dream about someone really random too, like somebody I haven't even thought about in years! Where does this stuff come from?

shelley said...

It seems like it was extremely easy to make friends in college. You automatically have things in common and subjects to discuss. It takes more effort to make friends elsewhere, I think. You're definitely not snobby/boring/standoffish, it just takes more effort outside of school.

I hope you got some sleep.

Kiersten said...

I know what you mean about making friends outside of college, too. It's been an adjustment. It took me until now to finally feel like I was even getting the hang of the non-college social situation, but I don't feel particularly connected to anyone here either beyond friendly superficial church relationships. I'm glad that you found someone new to connect with.

I used to feel funny about dreaming about ex boyfriends, too. For some reason I don't so much anymore--although I did have one a few months ago where an ex was visiting my parents' house for dinner. For some reason I was running late, but when I got there he was serenading everyone about how he was still having a hard time over breaking up all those years ago. I was so embarrassed (in the dream, that is).

e said...

I hope your post helped you get some rest. In response to your points …

I love Myrna Loy. I have a bit of a fascination with her because there’s a few people at the museum who tell me I look like her (I don’t see it, but hey, I think it is a fantastic compliment). Where did you guys rent the movie from? I’d love to see it.

In terms of your article, I imagine there would be SEVERAL journals who would gladly publish it. I think you should submit it to many places.

I’m sorry about your mom. What a hard, horrible time for everyone. But, I do believe that all of you are being strengthened beyond anything you can imagine. Particularly your mom. Still, I’m thinking about you all.

Finally, I had to talk to you about this making friends business. I completely understand! It is hard to make friends outside of college. The thing for me is that I can become friendly with people and maybe it even appears that I’m good friends with lots of people, but I’m not. There aren’t many people I feel like I’ve been able to connect with in the last couple years. In Utah, a lot of times they were just too much into the LDS culture things I detest (but, hey, if it works for them, that’s great) or out here, they aren’t members and have little or no moral grounding. It’s so hard to find a real friend. That’s definitely why I whined so much on my blog when my roommate moved back west. She and I were so alike. I would definitely like to hear your husband’s theories on friendship post-college. You should post some of that. It’d be an interesting read.

Rachsticle said...

I understand J means about close friendships. I think that my friendships now anywhere near as close as mine with you :)

I cannot for the life of me think of who SC is. Email it to me.

M said...

Thanks for your comments, friends. I have to say, e, I don't really see the connection between you and Myrna Loy either. But that IS a great compliment - she's pretty. And sassy.

We got the movie off of Netflix. If you have an account, you should put it in your queue.

It looks like I'm not the only one who has had difficulty making friends outside of college. I guess that's comforting, but also kind of a sad thought. I hope that the "glory days" of close friendships haven't ended...

I'm sure they haven't. :)

ego non said...

Other things besides graduating can cause friend-making to poop out. For me it was more like getting married, moving to a new place, and feeling sorry for myself because I didn't have any friends (or if I did find someone really great and we became pals they always seemed to move away). I've found for myself I just needed to cut the self-pity and be more courageous about meeting new people. Okay, and I'm crazy so I plotted about people I wanted to talk to and get to know better based on things like comments in Relief Society, lab, etc.

Anyhow, based on all the comments I would say it's pretty normal and natural to feel that way when there are big changes in our lives.

Melanie said...

I know EXACTLY how you feel! I don't fall asleep until 2am every night because I can't turn off my brain. I'm also having the same friend issue. All but one of my friends has moved away and we live in a ward where 90% of the congregation is over 40. Kind of hard to make new friends in that circumstance. I hope you get a good night sleep tonight!

Shelby said...

hey I'm wicked late to commenting on this, but I just wanted to share my love for William Powell and Myrna Loy. Everytime I watch one of Powell's movies I find this strange attraction/love for him. I got a box set of five Loy/Powell movies and they are fantastic. But they have more of the madcap comedies they did together. Also if you want even more William Powell, I also love him in "My Man Godfrey" with Carole Lombard who I think is just gorgeous.

M said...

Yay, I'm glad you like Powell/Loy stuff, Shelby! I'm not surprised at all, given your good taste in film. :)

I forgot about the movie "My Man Godfrey." I've seen it before, but I don't remember it. I'll have to watch it again. Another fun Powell film is "Life with Father." A really young Elizabeth Taylor is in that movie, I think it's one of her first film appearances.